Thank You and Good Bye

This was the last front page of 'News of the World' which closed after 168 years of operation.

I have not written for more than 6 months in this blog and to think of number of blogs I had created, written and deleted, it would make almost two years in total. I think I did it because I wanted to let out the steam.

To be honest, I did with a wish that 'you' would read it sometimes. Which meant I would still be a part of ' your' life in some ways. I guess I was not ready to let you go yet.  I couldn't comprehend my life without you. I had to have your existence somewhere even if not with me and in my life.

You know it is weird, I did a mistake. I didn't know what I had until it was too late. I realise that it was futile to try to get it back.. it was like trying to bring back the dead. And I only caused more sorrow and pain to you and I almost destroyed myself in the process..

I seeked solace in arms of strangers when all I wanted was to get one look into your eyes. The grieving process took too long.

But now I understand. I can love you always. I do not need you in my life for that. At the end, we are all the same, we are all made of this premodial soup. We were all one once, and we will all become one at the end.

I cannot forget you, but I hope you have come to live with my memories in peace too. That the damage my small decision caused in our lives have healed a bit. That you are happy wherever you are. I want you to let me go.. Like I am letting you go.

I will cherish what we had. I will never forget the first day I saw you. And I think I will always love that person that I met that day, though it was after quite some time that I realised it was love.

I am letting you go.. and I am not coming back here..

I love you. Please set me free..